Thing called Life

Joblessness and frustration makes you do a lot of things that you never thought you would do IN your LIFE...Never Thought that I would ever Blog.I mean not that I am against it..I quite like reading blogs and I thoroughly enjoy them but never thought that I would ever blog..Here I am .Exams are over I am jobless.I mean I am literally Jobless.I am being refused for everything..1st, I din't get a job after being promised by my manager in Goldman Sachs that i would be offered one, by the time I accepted the reality that GS won't offer me a job after making me work like a dog I went for another interview in Google,got shortlisted for it .My candidature was being considered and after 7months of waiting ,I got a call from the HR saying that I din't get the job with Google........Things would have changed if i was a Googler.I consoled myself by thinking thatmay be Google is not the right place for me.May be I should focus on something else so I started studying for my Final exams which was in March 2009.Trust me M totally jinxed ,second day of my exam I got Chicken Pox.I couldn't tell my parents what I was going through as I was supposed to act like a matured individual so with zillion blisters on my face and body I somehow wrote my exams .People started acting as if am untouchable,People went to the extent of thinking that if they talk to me over the phone they will get this deadly disease named Chicken Pox.It is only during times of difficulty you realise that there are not too many people who will stand by you and This is exactly what I realised but I was lucky to have this amazing friend named Shreshta who is my pillar of support,who was always there for me.April 6th 2009 i WAS FINALLY DONE WITH MY DEALY EXAMS.I was anxiously waiting for April 8th 2009 as I was supposed to submit my Visa Application .I don't remember when was the last time I had gone for a HOLIDAY.May BE i WAS IN STANDARD 8th or 10.So I was anxiously waiting for my Visa to arrive and on 24th April I got a regret letter from British High Commission saying that they have to refuse my application.So here I am totally frustrated wondering if things are ever gonna be fine.But NO IT WON'T because when God made me ,deleted the VERY word NORMAL from my VERY DICTIONARY OF LIFE..U see nothing normal happens with me.People have their boy friends in the same city but my bf stays continents away .Here I am ,I have no life ,Nowhere to go.Nothing to do.I am supposed to behave myself and act matured and live a DISGUSTING LIFE and accept life as it is.So once and for all I want to ask myself -will things ever materialise?Will I ever get a job.Will I ever get a visa.Will my life EVER BE NORMAL????